Not yet anyway.
Tonight he wrote a list of our varying “interpersonal dynamics” and texted it to me. And it was exactly what I needed.
So I think I like this new place we’re in? Still with that intoxicating new relationship intensity that we all love and crave, but now it is a little more tempered. We are not exactly “normal” or “sane” but we are no longer consumed by total lunacy.
We went briefly mad for a minute there, in the throes of lust and desire and pleasure. I mean, we nearly said the l-word! We basically did. We toyed and danced around it. Lun-a-cy.
It freaked us both out. And rightly so. Maybe him more than me. because you say I’m incapable of love, I say I’m capable of infinite, multi-loves. Tomato, tomato.
Anyway I’m not gonna share the list here, as amazing as it is, because that belongs to us. him and me. It’s ours. But what he wrote swept me right back up into him.
Okay I’ll share ONE:
- Crazy insatiable raw animal sexual magnetism
Oh, and also this one: “belonging–the desire to give ourself to and own the other.”
Although that kind of falls under raw animal sexual magnetism, right? In fact several items on that list are our perverted sexual proclivities and should be under the raw sex grouping. It seems that the whole list could be categorized and cross referenced, which turned us on when we talked about it, because we are such weirdos.
I am relieved it’s not over. Coming down from this high is gonna suck but that’s future Christa’s problem. This christa gets to soak it up a bit longer. look how happy she is.
