I am a good person (I think?) who means well (usually) and tries her best (sort of, sometimes) but also I am kind of a garbage human who makes questionable decisions and poor choices on the regular.
But I am friends with a lot of good, wonderful people that I adore and admire and respect. if these people can tolerate me and all my bullshit nonsense, if they dare I say LIKE me, then there must be something of value underneath this gross skin sack I’m stuck in. Right?
So I guess I can spend the rest of my life feeling crummy and ashamed, hating myself. or I can just finally let go of the self loathing and get on with it.
Is it possible to have both? Because I love nothing as much as I love viciously criticizing every single part of my existence. Can I have that AND still be a functioning, motivated member of the human race? Can a modern lady truly have it all?