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Well it happened. the bubble has burst. I knew it was coming but I didn’t think it would be this soon. I thought I had more time!!

He was way too hot for it to last any significant length of time. Clearly above my pay scale.

Damn it. I cry. I wanted more. Just a little more. Just a little longer. He had delightful body parts.

Even as it ends, though, I can honestly say I do not regret it. Not one tiny bit. I was acutely aware of the unbalanced nature of our relationship so I was guarded and careful. Mostly.

Okay. upwards and onward (or more appropriately downward and onward).

Who gets my crazy next!!

I’m making a list of some of my favorite comedies that I think are underrated or forgotten. So far here’s what I got:

• Midnight run
• Quick change
• Mother
• The jerk

I need suggestions! What you got

Four weeks. It’s been four weeks exactly since he first messaged me. “I bet my pizza wedge is better than your pizza wedge.” (Don’t ask but just know that my profile is really cute and clever and funny and it has to do with my pizza wedge skiing skills.)

I had no idea that those first few messages would take me down a path into a place of total madness. I don’t know how to explain it, other than madness. What I’m experiencing is madness.

This man has me completely turned around and upside down. We are light and casual yet crushingly intimate and serious. We are taking things slow and easy, exploring each other at a leisurely pace, but actually we are wholly wrapped up in and around each other, like some kind of twisting vine, and we’re speeding towards some unknown finish line.

He challenges me. Confuses me. has me questioning everything I thought I knew about myself and what I want.

I don’t like it! It is so unsettling.

But I kind of love it.

It’s all just new relationship energy, right? This isn’t sustainable. So I’m going to just go with it. Revel in it for as long as I can. And then, when it shifts, we’ll see where we end up. Maybe we go our separate ways. Maybe we get married. Maybe we become some third thing.

God he’s so dreamy.

I’m back! And so happy. I desperately loved being in New England but Colorado’s home now.

Plus I’ve got a lot of dick lined up.

Loljk.

OR AM I??

For reals tho I actually am in a delightful little situation right now. One that has surprised and overwhelmed me with its intensity. He is taking up all my focus and energy. Running on a constant loop in my head. And I am loving every. single. second.

I know it won’t last. This magical bubble will pop sooner or later. The spell will be broken. And we’ll be back in the real world.

But we made a promise to each other. To forget the inevitable and simply enjoy the moment while we’re in it. We’re floating inches above the people underneath.

So yeah. that’s what we’re doing.

And you know, if some tiny secret piece of me is toying with the absurd thought that maybe there is no bubble and maybe MAYBE this is the way it’s supposed to be? It’s okay. That secret piece is foolish and silly but part of this moment, too, and I won’t pop the bubble. I’ll let it be, to run its course.

Guys. He is so cute. so cute. I deserve this.