American dream
I don’t want a relationship. Everyone always says “you will when you meet the right person” and I roll my eyes and vomit right there in the streets.
But what do you do when you don’t want a relationship, and then you meet someone that maybe makes you want a relationship? First off, admitting those people were right is obnoxious and I refuse to do it. But also what if this want is so terrifying and gross and you’re so focused on it failing and being like everything else that you don’t even enjoy the good stuff, and you end up ruining it all anyway by being a neurotic idiot?
The answer is to remain firmly in the “I don’t want a relationship” place and ignore everything else: the voices in your head, the feelings in your gut, the tightening of the chest, the breathless encounters. so when it all comes crashing down (and it will) you can feel better knowing you didn’t want it anyway.