This empty hole

By christa 19 February, 2023 random

I had trouble sleeping last night. 4am found me reading old messages from a boy I once liked. he was cute and sexy and I was charming and funny.

So when I compared it to some recent exchanges with a couple guys from these lousy apps, I learned a little something. (mainly that men are garbage and not worth my effort.)

I thought I’d lost my charm and my funny. And maybe I have, a little. My confidence has been real low, which definitely affects how charming and funny I feel and act.

But even at my lowest point, I am still pretty funny. It’s the men. They are the most boring creatures on the planet with so little to offer me. but I am supposed to be grateful for their attention? I have one guy who wanted me to sit in his car in an abandoned parking lot near his work to watch him jerk off and then, AND THEN, lucky me, I could suck his dick. Right there in his car! What a wonderful offer.

I deserve better than this.

I shred hard

By christa 6 February, 2023 random

We went skiing for the first time ever this past weekend. My advice? Don’t wait till your 40s to start skiing.

It was fun though. The weather was perfect.

Ry has only been skiing like 3 or 4 times now, and it’s annoying how good he is at it. Stupid teenagers. Yes we are all so impressed with you and your youth.

It was Nick’s first time as well and he was good, too! He tried the ski lessons with me but wants to snowboard.

I do think their skating skills helped them. Also cause they’re young.

Listen to this. I only fell twice! and one of them wasn’t my fault, some dumb lady came crashing through the boundary fence between the two hills, and plowed into me. The other time was my own fault.

Look at that amazing pizza wedge form.

And here’s the mountain where I shredded the gnar.

Okay that is not where I skied. I was on the learning hill. With like the 3 and 4 year olds. Which is fine. IT IS FINE.