This empty hole

By christa 19 February, 2023 random

I had trouble sleeping last night. 4am found me reading old messages from a boy I once liked. he was cute and sexy and I was charming and funny.

So when I compared it to some recent exchanges with a couple guys from these lousy apps, I learned a little something. (mainly that men are garbage and not worth my effort.)

I thought I’d lost my charm and my funny. And maybe I have, a little. My confidence has been real low, which definitely affects how charming and funny I feel and act.

But even at my lowest point, I am still pretty funny. It’s the men. They are the most boring creatures on the planet with so little to offer me. but I am supposed to be grateful for their attention? I have one guy who wanted me to sit in his car in an abandoned parking lot near his work to watch him jerk off and then, AND THEN, lucky me, I could suck his dick. Right there in his car! What a wonderful offer.

I deserve better than this.