sleep to dream

By christa 8 May, 2023 random

I take ambien when needed, but I always end up regretting it. or rather my bank account regrets it.

This time I bought three records, a concert ticket, expensive shampoo and who knows what else.

I am excited for the concert though. The National. That will make three concerts for me, all in the same year.

don’t mess with post pandemic Christa, I’m wild and crazy. Look at me having sex, going to concerts, wearing birks. You can’t stop this. You can’t.

A friend said something to me the other day at lunch and it really got me thinking. We were talking about the new guy and even though she knows I’m just wanting something real casual, she said “you are way more excited about this than someone who wants something casual” and so now I’m all backward and upsides down. Threw me for a loop. is it true?? Do I want more than casual?

I have to really think on this for a bit.

Boys boys all type of boys

By christa 3 May, 2023 random

The date was a success! I even ate an oyster. Not raw though. Gross.

All this is just practice for my trip to MA in a few weeks. Warm ups. Gotta get back into the groove so I don’t embarrass myself. Boston, be ready!

God I love cute boys. I love them so much. I want all the boys all the time. boys boys all type of boys. Gimme gimme gimme.

He’s kinda out of my league, an archaeologist, a Purple Heart vet, tall, a musician, this thick curly hair, very manly, very sexy. I’m just dumb old me.

But he wants to see me again, so I’m not questioning it. (Well I’m questioning it a little cause I’m neurotic as fuck.)

Even before we met I told him I was a thick girl with thick thighs. Look at these thick thighs I said.

And he still showed up! He still wanted to touch me! He still wanted to get close to me!

Don’t ask me why. We aren’t questioning it remember?

How do men always know though? Not long after I got home, I get a text from the guy who blew me off a few weeks ago. Apologizing for his “foul behavior”.

Too late buddy!

(It’s not too late)