Why do I do this
I have lost complete control of my life and I don’t even care.
I was chugging along. hoping something changes. something goes my way. someone notices.
And then someone did. In the most sudden unexpected profound way. someone noticed me.
Only see… the situation is very tricky. It’s uncharted waters for me, and I truly don’t know how to navigate it.
So what can I do except go along with this current?
I am living so dangerously right now.
It’s thrilling beyond belief.
I will drive into a volcano when this all ends in disaster and embarrassment.