Bloodier than blood

In the infrared sauna the other day they had these red lights on, which made my already prominent leg veins even more veiny. And while the red light was bad enough, when I did a black and white filter, holy crow. it made them look absolutely disgusting and I am obsessed.

Granted I do have a weird fascination with veins and blood. Because it’s true. something in my veins bloodier than blood.

Man I’m gonna have so many varicose veins when I get older. So so many.

Okay how long is too long to hear back from someone, after what you think was a good date? An hour? A day? A week? A year? I have no idea what he thought of me. Am I really that off my game? that I don’t even know anymore?

Argh. I hate this. I hate it so much