The magical fruit

By christa 2 July, 2022 random

I planted some green bean seeds on my balcony and the first one has started to sprout!

You can’t call what I do on my balcony with my container plants “gardening” but whatever it is, I love it. it’s very thrilling. And it is good for my soul.

None of the other seeds I planted are sprouting and I’m kinda bummed but that’s part of the experience, too.

I’ve long thought adam driver was hot. crazy hot. very sexy. Then nick started telling me how he thought kylo ren looks like Ryland, that he reminds him of his brother. Thanks a lot Nick. He has ruined adam driver for me. Completely ruined. I can’t have anything.

when you don’t have to make dinner

By christa 30 June, 2022 random

My body feels weird whenever the boys are gone for an extended period of time. Everything is the same but everything is so so different.

I pour a glass of water and think “so this is what it is like for people without kids.” I sit on the couch and think “this is how they live, every single day.” I climb into bed and think “what in the hell.”

I enjoy not having to deal with dinner, that’s for sure.

Tomorrow is the parade for the Stanley Cup. I was excited at first, but that faded quickly. I’m too old for these kind of shenanigans. I wanted to take the kids but they aren’t even here. and besides, parades are for people who aren’t dead inside (outside too). So I’ll stay home.

My nights are wide open now that hockey is over. Don’t worry. Christmas in July movies are starting on hallmark. so I’ll be okay.

Thank you, drugs

By christa 25 June, 2022 random

The Avs game was a nice turd cherry on top of the giant turd pie that was today.

I did get my ambien birks in the mail though.

Birkenstocks

But wait! my #ambienbuys don’t stop there. I also apparently ordered this fancy grill pan. such a pleasing color, don’t you think? Mint.

New grill pan, in mint!

So how many times did you cry today? I lost count. But right now? I’m feeling okay. this single moment, on a cool night in late June, wearing my new birkenstocks, admiring my pretty new pan, and sweetly numb from the medicines I just took.

With sorrow…

By christa 24 June, 2022 random

What can I say. Another dark day, in a time of so many dark days.

It’s hard to live during the fall of an empire. I need an advice book or a helpful how-to. A fun little cartoon video to guide me? An instructional on how to stop scromiting?

we can rail against the Republican machine that led us to this moment, and with good reason. but the people I’m most angry with today has to be my own party. They have failed us. We did what we were supposed to do and they failed us.

Do you remember people telling us how much we were overreacting? Back in 2016? I do. We cried and grieved because we knew what it meant and others told us “calm down it will all be fine.”

So I guess this is fine? It’s all just so fine.

They really do need to roll back the regulation on the good pharmaceuticals though. if they want us numb and compliant, well then give me the good drugs damn it.