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So in a few short hours, we&#146re headed off to Boston. I am very excited. I can&#146t wait to see everyone and see the city and show off my beautiful baby. I love travelling, even when it&#146s a pain in the ass. I wonder how it will be with Ryland. Hmmm.

There is a very good possibility that Gordon will not be returning home. The notion that I am going to have to do this whole parenting thing solo is becoming an increasingly likely scenario. I&#146m not entirely sure how I feel about this, we&#146ll see what happens. The good thing is my family and my friends are supportive and will do pretty much anything to make sure Ryland and I are happy AND safe.

Men suck. God do they suck. Thank all hell that Ryland has me for a mother, to make sure he grows up decent.

okay, I&#146ll see you kids later. Send happy thoughts my way, high high up in the sky.

Official proof that the Bush administration is pure evil: when I signed in right now to make an entry, the number of comments stood at 666. Yes. It&#146s true.

For an amusing look at the day after the election, visit my friend Paul&#146s site (he is my friend, even though we rarely talk these days, which is quite a SHAME and totally his fault).

So the next four years will be hell and then, like always, a Democrat will come in and start the cleaning process and right all the wrongs. But boy, four years seem a long time from now. Ryland will be four, close to starting school. I’ll be halfway into my thirties. And Gordon will be old enough to drink (ha ha).

Pier 1 had a crazy ass moving sale, everything was 75% off. I bought a $250 desk for $40 and two chairs orignally at $135 for $35 each. As well as several candles and some baskets and various Pier 1 stuff. I haven&#146t gone this nutso since I worked there. But how can you pass up 75% off? Seriously.

Now I am beyond broke and I should feel guilty but screw it! I needed some materialistic consumerism (I suppose there is no other kind, eh) to boost my spirits after the election. I&#146m doing my part to help this lousy economy.

Here I was sitting at the computer, upset and crying. Ryland was in his crib, watching his mobile and listening to music. And he started to cry, so I went in and picked him up. We walked around his room. Up on his walls are two paintings I did for him, and as we were walking, he just stared at them, his eyes open and searching, studying those paintings. It made me feel so good.

Thank god I have the cutest sweetest baby in the whole world, or I&#146d be a bigger mess than I already am.

It is very hard to see through my bitterness and anger right now. There is not much to take solace in, but my friend Marianne had a good point and it helped me a little. I will quote her, because I couldn&#146t possibly say it better:

&#147I do feel slightly better about this election only because it appears that the asshole won the popular vote and as disgusted as I am with the STUPID and CLEARLY RETARDED people of this country who elected him, at least THAT is democracy, not like last time when he STOLE the election…at least this time he won it.

Oh Christa, I am just SO scared about the next four years…what is this guy going to do when he doesn&#146t have to worry about re-election? I shudder…..SHUDDER!!!!&#148

Now all that&#146s left is pack up Ryland and my stuff and rid my hands of this place and its idiot citizens for the next four years or so.

sheesh. what a shame.