whoa!

Look what happens when I step away for a few days! The comment section hasn’t seen so much action since Bush was elected.

I apologize for my absence. I had a whole big move going on, and even though the computer was of course one of the first items unpacked and setup, I had no phone service and/or internet connection.

If you’re hearing angels singing and people rejoicing, it is because I have at last achieved religious rebirth, via broadband. hallelujah!

Expect a flurry of activity in the coming weeks, only to die down to a pathetic whisper of tiresome rants.


we’re in.

it’s official. we are finally, FINALLY, in our new place.

I am very apprehensive about it, having recently seen a group of young black men beat the shit of a young girl who was down on the ground, on a busy street, at 5pm, and no one but me seemed to care. It was about 5 or so miles from our house, and I’m sure shit like this happens everywhere, all the time, in cities all over the country, but I’d never seen anything like it and it freaked the hell out of me. So now I’m pretty much terrified 24/7.

But at least I don’t live with Gordon’s mother anymore.

Trade-offs, people. Trade-offs. Sure, we may be brutally murdered but I repeat, I won’t be living with Gordon’s mother anymore.


these kids today…

There are a lot of kids in my new neighborhood. Like 75 or something. They’re always running around outside, every single day, in the yards and on the streets, laughing and talking and riding their bikes and jumping rope and whatever else it is kids do.

It’s natural to assume that because I have a family, a child of my own, I would be pleased. Never assume. Because, as we all know, I hate kids. I can’t stand the noisy bastards. They’re annoying and rude and I don’t like any of them. Obviously, I like my own son, as he’s the fruit of my loins; some days, I question just exactly how much I like him. But still, he’s cute and he’s mine and looks like me, and therefore acceptable.

These other kids on the street are the exact kind of riff-raff I intend to keep away from Ry. He needs the calming steady influence of me and other adults. No crazy kids to give him ideas.

And can I just ask, what the frick is wrong with these kids anyway? I didn’t know they still played outside anymore. Yet every time I go to the house, there they all are, outside. Outside!

Don’t they ever watch TV or play video games, just sit in the house and be the fat lazy American children we all know and love? Sure, in every other neighborhood in the country, but in mine they have to the kind that play outside, running and screaming and having fun and generally just irritating me and messing up my constitution.


2 and counting

Two years ago, I spent the entire day pacing around my house, constipated and uncomfortable, moving from room to room, laying on my bed, laying on the couch, sitting on the toilet, crawling on the floor, moaning everywhere I went. I was dead exhausted from being up the whole night before with said constipation, but my body just refused to let me rest or relax or find any sort of comfort whatsoever.

At about 5:30 that day, I realized that my constipation was actually just Ryland saying “let me out, mom, I’m ready.” And while his birth at 8:41pm ended one truly incredible experience (my pregnancy), it began a new journey for me, one that has been maddening and exhilarating and all things in between.

Happy 2nd birthday, little bug. Thank you for giving my life a little more chaos and a lot more meaning.