my wicked jealous heart

Do any of you remember my little rant about the awkward flirting between two of my co-workers? It drove me nuts. I’m not sure why, it just really got under my skin.

Well, as it turns out, it was only my sweet bruised little ego burning with envy. My jealousy wasn’t directed at the attributes of my hot female co-worker. Rather, it was just a general “pay attention to me, too!” sort of thing. I certainly can’t measure up to a tall, blond, slender Russian, but I’m tragically cool and flirting with me is nothing if not fun.

Lately, though, we’ve had quite a few exchanges, not exactly award-winning flirtations, but he stops by my desk frequently and starts up strange conversations. I can only assume it’s his version of flirting. Whatever it is, it’s enjoyable and I feel much better about myself as a result.

The lesson? Lose a few pounds, get a spectacular haircut, and you, too, can flirt with the dorky new guy at your work!

Well, he isn’t new anymore. And I don’t think my hair or my weight has anything to do with it. And you know, he isn’t nearly as dorky or annoying as I first believed. He’s actually a pretty funny guy, interesting, smart, peculiar. I just had to give him the chance, which I never did until our team-building office outing several months ago. All I’m saying is we’re friends now and it’s nice.

Crazy the things that happen when you get drunk in Provincetown in the middle of the day with your office mates.



back in the b-dot

Well, we’re home from our little visit to Arizona. It was a nice trip with all the usual ingredients. I’m relieved to home, to be back in my warm delicious comfy bed, my quiet peaceful house, my food, my beverages, mine mine mine. And Ry is happy to be back in his bed and back to all of his toys that he doesn’t have to share with anyone, ever. And G. is glad to have us home because he’s got nothing without us.

Now I get to decorate my tree, which is my most favorite thing in the universe.

I found an ipod nano in the seat pocket on the plane, which was cool. The previous owner had some downright embarrassing songs on there. I wonder if he/she feels as bad about losing it as he/she does about someone discovering the kind of music they like. I have to buy a USB cable to make it work with my mac though, which kind of sucks. but hey, I got an ipod nano! for free!

I like finding stuff. It feels like some sort of justice for all the many things I lose.


when you’re back in your old neighborhood, cigarettes taste so good.

Things in the old pueblo are pretty good. I’m enjoying myself. I’ll be sad to leave. It’s nice to have family and friends, even if they drive you absolutely insane. Plus it’s fun to share Ry. He’s sort of the only really awesome thing I’ve done in my life, so I get very show and telly about him. He is one cool kid, despite my parenting skills.

I am looking forward to going home and getting my house decorated, trimming the tree, blah blah etc. I love me the christmas decorations. and the music. and the presents. everything really.

Here is something silly. Last night we went to the zoo for Zoo Lights, where they’ve decked the happy holly hell out of it. It was fun! Ry and I both loved it. It was very sweet and quaint, wandering around the zoo at night, all those lights around you, partaking in all the holiday joy. I felt very happy, because the night was so nice, cool but not cold, a little breeze in the trees, lots of cheery folks and family.

Here’s the silly part. As we were walking around, we passed a chorus and they were singing “we three kings” which happens to be one of my favorite songs (inexplicable, I know), and I was holding Ry’s hand and we were looking up at the lights in the trees and they’re singing “star of wonder, star of light…” and I just couldn’t help myself. I started crying. Not huge sobs or anything, more just choking up and getting a little teary. I can be such a dork. But it was really sweet, I’m telling you. If you were there you would have felt the same.

I only wished Gordon was there with us. I can’t wait to get back to him and our little family and have our merry little christamas together.

awww shucks, I’m getting all misty just thinking about it now. stupid christmas, bringing out the sap in me.