This is my Boston, a city never content.

I was feeling a bit blue today, looking at the world with heavy eyes, dragging through mud and longing.

At lunch, I grabbed my ipod and took a walk around, near Haymarket and Faneuil Hall, watching the people, taking in the scene.

I don’t know if it was the weather, or Amy Winehouse in my ears, or the city itself, but that 30-40 min walk cheered me beyond belief. Probably a combination of all three.

Walking back to the office, I was reminded by how hard I fell for this city when I moved here in 2000. Truth be told, I was in love with Boston for several years before I actually dared make my move, so our romance has been raging for at least 10 years now. I don’t see why it can’t continue for the rest of our lives. Boston and me and our lifelong affair. It’s a storybook love, I tell you, doesn’t matter where I hang my hat.

I’ve lived in a lot of cities and each one had its charm, but there is definitely something unique about Boston. It’s that disarming juxtaposition of old and new, mingling together, sometimes clashing, sometimes complimenting, but always arresting. These centuries-old buildings and streets, packed with history and meaning, seeped in tradition, coexisting right next to Dunkin Donuts, Urban Outfitters and Crate and Barrel. All the people who’ve walked the places I walked, all the years between us. So much has changed, but the city holds on tight to her past and she won’t let go easily. The neighborhoods, brimming with the old-world English, the Irish and the Italians, all clinging to their heritage, resisting the newcomers and the looming future. Graveyards with their famous inhabitants, nestled and resting snugly between sky scraping offices filled with computers, cell phones, and white shiny teeth. The ocean so close, cold bitter unforgiving Atlantic, the spurned and lonely sister to warm, bubbly Pacific.

Around here, people are miserable, because that’s what this city was built on. Misery. People working together in their misery, despite their misery, just to get by. This is a lifestyle I can understand. This is a lifestyle I can get behind. I wasn’t cut from the cloth of happiness and contentment.

I love where I was born, I love where I was raised, they will always have a connection to me, but I didn’t choose those places. I chose Boston and Boston chose me. This is where I made my home, this is where I made my son, and it’s as much a part of me as anyone else and everywhere else.

quincy market faneuil hall qm at lunch

union oyster house
union oyster house

bell in hand tavern
bell in hand tavern

logan or quincy

I love Boston. I always have, I always will. I forget sometimes, what this city means to me. It’s nice to remember.



train teeth

Yesterday going home on the train, someone had colored in a few of the teeth of a person on an advertisement poster, so it looked like he was missing teeth. I didn’t want to find it funny, but I did. I always do. It’s so silly. It makes me laugh.

Yes, missing teeth makes me laugh, now you know the truth. My sense of humor isn’t so refined after all.

So anyway, there I am on rush-hour train, trying to control myself, because you look weird when you’re by yourself on the train, listening to headphones, laughing like a crazy person.

The only solution was to avoid looking at the poster and just close my eyes and keep my focus. But I can’t do that, because the lady standing next to me is short, shorter than me even, and her big giant bag keeps smacking into me, over and over, pushing into me the whole time, and my eyes keep going back to the poster, and the train is super crowded and everyone is really close to each other, and the whole situation was just so ridiculous with the missing teeth and the bag jamming against me like a dirty old man, the people sitting in front of me getting a direct view of my crotch and/or breasts, depending on their height…I couldn’t take it. I was literally shaking from keeping in the laughter, tears leaking from my eyes.

I finally caved and just started laughing. If I didn’t I would have peed my pants. People gave me looks, but it was too funny. That stupid little lady with her stupid bag bigger than her. The train jerking everywhere. People bumping into each other. The missing teeth.

Life is absurd and sometimes if you don’t laugh you will start stabbing people with little nail clippers.