Take me back for Christmas
Hallmark does a Christmas in July thing every year and I love it of course. they usually do a few new movies, too. I watched one of the new ones tonight called take me back for Christmas and it was cute enough and all. but I started crying at the end. Like really really crying.
The basic plot is how this woman wishes for a different life and then she wakes up in this different life. (they do this storyline a lot in these Christmas movies.) In her pre-wish life, her mom is dead, but in the new dream life, her mom is still alive. So of course by the end of the movie she has she learned all her lessons and discovered what is truly important, blah blah blah, and she gets to go back to real life, the one where she’s with her husband again, only her mom is not alive. But before she goes, before she leaves her wish, she gets to say goodbye to her mom. And it was actually really sweet and moving and that is why I cried.
Imagine being able to go back and say goodbye to your mom? I would like that. To see her one more time. Hug her. Smell her. Remember her. Just be with her.
Jeez typing it up even now is making me cry again.
It’s funny how you can be so okay for so long and then something happens and it triggers you and it’s just this heavy grief all over again.
Maybe it has something to do with Ryland having knee surgery today and me feeling a little vulnerable about that. Everything was fine and he is recovering well and it’s all good but that moment when they wheeled him away and I just stood there watching him go… sure he’s an adult now but he’ll always be my little boy and that protective feeling never goes away.
We are all going to be okay.