I can’t do it alone
I’m making a list of my all time favorite albums. I tried to keep it at ten but that’s impossible. Also what about all the songs I love but maybe not the album it is on?
But I’ll persevere because that’s what the world needs.
I miss my mom. We weren’t ever Lorelei and Rory Gilmore in fact we kind of hated each other but not really. I just want her not to be dead. It makes me angry she’s gone.
When I think about her and all she gave up… for us. It just fucking wrecks me. Because I could never be that selfless. And I was a rotten horrible awful child. And now I know better and I want to tell her this but I can’t because she’s dead. She is dead and I cannot tell her and I don’t have a daughter to make up for it and it just breaks me.
I may have had a drink or two tonight. Imagine trying to get through this life without drugs or alcohol?!
I miss you. I miss you so much.