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I like a little day drinking in the summer, slow and easy, being not drunk but not exactly sober. And then driving home there’s really great music on the radio.

I think about how small pleasures like the radio are fading fast and I hope other small pleasures like this replace it but I don’t know. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just getting old right. Our elders probably thought the same thing?

But what if the days of small pleasures, of little treasures, are as old as us. What if they die with us.

No that’s silly. I’m just old now. This is the way. This is the way.

I saw Nope this weekend. Loved it. I have a crush on Daniel Kaluuya. He’s a slow blinker. I like slow blinkers. I also like the way he moves.

Anyway, it is an excellent movie. you should see it. (Although the scariest part turned out not to be scary after all)

After the movie there was a guy handing out these little cards to rate the movie, from CinemaScope. I’ve never done that before. it was a pretty basic survey, but it was still exciting. I love giving my opinion. It made me feel special (which doesn’t take much these days. don’t judge me).

Going to movie theaters right now is not the best idea. I’m real anxious about getting Covid again. I just wanted to see it so bad! I am not a good pandemic citizen. In my defense, it was an early matinee showing, on a workday, so there were not very many people in the theater. I think maybe 10-12, including us. and I wore my mask. Still. Is it worth getting sick? It’s my own fault if I get it again, but I will blame biden.

Ry saw the movie with me. He’s been emerging from his cave a little more lately, and we’ve been watching stuff together. I’ve been enjoying it very much. I’m being careful not to make any big sudden movements or loud noises, I don’t want to scare him off. just gotta play it cool. stay, go, doesn’t matter to me. it matters very very much.

He’s turning 18 in a few short weeks. I don’t like thinking about it. So let’s change the subject.

How about that 28-5 Red Sox loss. Ouch.

As I’m writing this (in my fancy new bed), my nose is making this tiny little squeaking noise every time I breathe. I can’t get it to stop. I’m sure if I looked it up it’s a long covid symptom.

Holy shit. Wait a second here. I just realized something. My new bed is 100% Gordon-free. It replaced the bed he and I once shared.

Whoa. This is kind of a big deal.

should I have done a ritual or something? god I didn’t even think about it. I just dumped the old bed in the trash bin. unceremoniously, without a second thought. Which, now that I look at it, seems quite fitting.

I remember reading something once about how all the cells in the body are replaced every seven years, and how nice to think that one day no part of my body will have a memory of his touch. It was a poem, so not exactly a medically, factually accurate sentiment but a seductive one all the same. I’ve never forgotten it. And next year will be seven years.

But now… well, now I have a bed he was never in. No imprint. No memory. No essence. Nothing seeping out while I sleep, his ghost can linger no longer.

This makes me happy.

The professional photo company kept the fun rolling (trolling?). They sent us this special gif they made of the graduates.

Here is Ry’s. It’s *chefs kiss*. The animation with the floating hand makes it look like she’s pushing him out there and then pulling him back. It’s just great. annoying but great.

See for yourself:

I’m adjusting to the new bed I bought myself. For my birthday? But also for my health. My back doc treating my sciatica issues said I needed a new bed real bad. And the physical therapist who is working me over likes to inflict pain I’m sure she’s from some underground torture ring. She said I am very weak in my core. I said no shit lady and also MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS LADY and then she poked me in my hurty spots and I cried and now I will do anything she says.

She’s right tho. I do have a weak core. As soon as I try to stand or walk, I immediately just flop over. I’m like the characters in human fall flat game.

So now of course I have to work really hard and impress her with my core work and ninja skills and then she will be all “I am so impressed with your core work skills and ninja skills” and it will be amazing.

TILL THEN… FLOPPY Christa human FALL FLAT.