lomo, polaroid and my lackluster photography skills.

I love my digital camera and I love taking digital pictures, but lately I’ve been wanting to use film, and older cameras. I am by no means an artist or a photographer, but I quite enjoy picture-taking and exploring the photo world & its many wonders.

to that end, instead of doing the piles of work on my desk, I decided to do a bit of research into lomo cameras and also find an old polaroid to buy on CL or ebay. I’m leaning right now towards the polaroid sx-70 or the polaroid SLR 680. Not sure yet which lomo I want, I think I’ll get the holga 120n, see how i like it, then maybe “upgrade” to a “fancier” model.

hrm. the problem with the polaroids is that they are going to stop making the film for those cameras soon; the film currently available is kinda expensive. but I want one anyway. and the lomo camera just seems like a lot of fun. as I just said, I’m not particularly good at taking pictures nor do I have any sort of artistic vision (unless by accident), but I think a lomo & old polaroid camera might make my lame pictures better somehow. by the power of grayskull maybe.

I even pulled out my dumb old P&S 35mm. I picked up some clearance 35mm film at target for like two dollars. I wish I had a darkroom. and the ability/knowledge/equipment to develop my own film. it seems more organic. also, I wish I was a faerie. and I wish I had a candy button nose, licorice lips and soda eyes.




fighting pork barrel with earmarks

I am in such a bitter relationship with politics right now. I love it so much, I always have, for as long as I can remember, but my level of frustration and disappointment has hit new highs. or lows, I suppose.

wait, lindsey lohan is a lesbian? huh?

okay. from what I’ve learned tonight, the financial crisis is so dire that passing a shite bill is better than no action at all. and to entice house republicans to pass the bill, lots of extraneous “sweetners” (to the tune of $100+ billion) had to be added.

and this is the best we can do. all those white dudes standing up there stroking & tonguing each other and telling me how awesome they are and how beautiful their dicks are told me as much. and I have to believe it. I have to because otherwise it would be impossible for me to get out of bed. I have to believe it because I have no idea if it’s true, and everyone who does (or should) know says it’s true.

From my angle, I see a lot of panicking, a lot of rich people running scared, and the rest of america shouldering the burden and forced to make things right. But okay. I accept it. Life isn’t fair, that I do know. And I’m a mom now. I’m used to cleaning up a lot of nastiness that I don’t want to. and I’m a human, I’m 100% used to doing things I don’t want to do. Plus, I’m a democrat. a mom, a human and a democrat. So fine, the bailout passes, we save the world, and life is rosy again.

cause what else are we going to do? We have so little choice, so little voice. The same old people are making the rules, then breaking them, making exceptions and conditions, all as they see fit, and we have to go along with it. This is still the best place to live and we’re still lucky to be here.

but god damn it if it doesn’t piss me off. god damn it.

GOD DAMN IT.

So I think the media is trying to raise the expectations of Palin’s performance in tomorrow’s debate, no? Not so much because they think she’s going to have a great debate, but if the expectations for Palin remain low, then she will “win” as long as she doesn’t vomit pea soup and decapitate a baby. If her debating skills are praised, if the bar is set high, then she is doomed for failure. Personally, I think she will do well, or well enough, and I think the format of a debate is more suited to her evil smugness. I certainly hope for chaos and ridiculousness and total meltdown, for my party’s benefit of course, but also for my entertainment. right now, nothing pleases me more in life than seeing Palin crash and burn. Nothing. Nothing at all.

Joe Biden needs to stop saying retarded things, that’s for sure.