So even though I don’t work at AEI anymore, my old boss is being the most awesome guy in the whole wide world. I know it’s just the hormones but everything these days makes me cry. I got a very nice email from Mark and it just kills me. WHY IS EVERYONE SO NICE TO ME? I don’t deserve it. I cry, I cry and the baby jesus cries and we all cry.<\/p>\n
I am very thankful<\/b> for my new place and that it has the most beautiful and delicious air conditioning in the whole wide world. I know it’s just the hormones but everything these days makes me cry. In this humid monsoon weather right now, the a\/c makes for a very happy christa. I cry and the baby jesus cries and the a\/c cries and all of tucson cries.<\/p>\n
I got the cutest ultrasound pictures in the history of ultrasound pictures. I have to scan them and then burn them to a CD and then bring them to a computer with internet access so I can post them. It’s all a big hassle, but I’ll do it, I promise. Because these pictures are too cute not to be adored and loved.<\/p>\n
I also had my first childbirth preparation class over the weekend. It was interesting, not as lame as I thought it might be and I learned some new things. Then we watched The Video. I’ve been watching a lot of those baby shows on TV lately, and they show women giving birth, but everything is mostly blocked and you don’t see much. It looks painful I guess, but mostly it seems like an okay experience. But The Video was not edited or blurred out in any way and we watched a woman push a baby out of her vagina. I used to be scared of turning 30. Now I am scared of turning 30 AND of pushing this lousy baby out of my tiny sweet small little vagina hole. I watched as this black hairy gooey bloody head pushed its way through the hole, and the lips kept getting stretched, bigger and biggger, and I had to bite my tongue to keep from screaming out, because OH MY GOD IT WILL HURT SO MUCH.<\/p>\n
Along with the baby, all sorts of strange fluids and substances came out as well. Very unpleasant looking stuff. Then, after the baby, you still aren’t done. Next up is the placenta, which has to come out of that same little vagina. While the word Placenta may sound nice, like a sweet alcoholic drink or a fancy beach resort maybe, nothing could be further than the truth. The good news, I am told, is that after the baby, the placenta is no big deal. It doesn’t hurt and it is pliable and easy. It is also very gross.<\/p>\n
And then of course they showed the baby and the mother meeting for the first time and I practically started bawling. Those childbirth-video-making people sure do know how to rollercoaster your emotions. sheesh louise.<\/p>\n