When I woke up this morning, I had this very warm, contented feeling, and I knew it was from the dream I was just having. It was quite strong, this sense of happiness and excitement. But I can’t remember anything about the dream at all, nothing. Just the feeling of it when I woke up. I tried to get back into it, glean some sort of lasting image to take with me, but to no avail.<\/p>\n
What disturbs me about all of this, waking up as I did, I know what happiness feels like now. And I’m far from that. So very far. That feeling I had this morning? It was strange and interesting and just plain good<\/em>. I don’t know that I’ve experienced that before; if I have, it was long ago.<\/p>\n So, what do I do now? I thought I was fine, I thought I felt okay about everything, that life was alright, not great, but alright enough to get by, and now I know it isn’t.<\/p>\n Even worse, my memory of this morning is already fading. I’m forgetting that happiness I felt, even for those few seconds. How can a person forget happy? on an unrelated topic, can someone explain to me how a child who loved mixed veggies (peas and carrots and green beans) barely 2 months ago can suddenly hate it with a passion and refuse to allow even the tiniest smidgen of it past his tight locked little lips?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" When I woke up this morning, I had this very warm, contented feeling, and I knew it was from the dream I was just having. It was quite strong, this… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-357","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/357","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=357"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/357\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=357"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=357"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=357"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nAt the very least though, I’ve reminded myself that being happy doesn’t just mean not being unhappy. So maybe I can do something about it after all. The pursuit of happiness is the real fun anyway. the journey not the destination. the quest, not the capture. etc, etc.<\/p>\n