{"id":3524,"date":"2023-12-31T04:22:29","date_gmt":"2023-12-31T11:22:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=3524"},"modified":"2023-12-31T04:22:32","modified_gmt":"2023-12-31T11:22:32","slug":"i-dont-even-care","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=3524","title":{"rendered":"I don&#8217;t even care."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I have felt a little off ever since the accident. The physical soreness is easing up and my bruises are fading. See?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1800\" height=\"2400\" src=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-1800x2400.jpg\" class=\"wp-image-3522\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-1800x2400.jpg 1800w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-900x1200.jpg 900w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-113x150.jpg 113w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-1152x1536.jpg 1152w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-1536x2048.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1066-scaled.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1800px) 100vw, 1800px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>inside I still feel banged up. My anxiety has increased but I think the meds I started a few months ago have helped to keep it at manageable level.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I definitely feel emotionally withdrawn tho. Kind of vulnerable? A little raw. I&#8217;m not sure how to describe it. I just want to be left alone. I don&#8217;t want to be around people or go anywhere or do anything. It&#8217;s hard to tell someone that and probably hard to understand. I feel like this parking lot shadow. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1800\" height=\"2400\" src=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-1800x2400.jpg\" class=\"wp-image-3523\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-1800x2400.jpg 1800w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-900x1200.jpg 900w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-113x150.jpg 113w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-1152x1536.jpg 1152w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-1536x2048.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/img_1046-scaled.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1800px) 100vw, 1800px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;ve actually been kind of an asshole. Very unresponsive. Ignoring people entirely. Especially the men. And I don&#8217;t even feel bad about it. I don&#8217;t even care. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I just need some room to breathe. Let me breathe okay. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I have felt a little off ever since the accident. The physical soreness is easing up and my bruises are fading. See? inside I still feel banged up. My anxiety&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3524","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3524","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3524"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3524\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3525,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3524\/revisions\/3525"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3524"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3524"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3524"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}