{"id":3339,"date":"2023-08-03T02:01:24","date_gmt":"2023-08-03T08:01:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=3339"},"modified":"2023-08-03T22:35:34","modified_gmt":"2023-08-04T04:35:34","slug":"the-hottest-loves-have-the-coldest-ends","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=3339","title":{"rendered":"The hottest loves have the coldest ends"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Normally I would be using the gym as a distraction for how miserable I feel. But I had to go and tear a calf muscle and now I&#8217;m an even bigger mess. I have nothing. NOTHING! <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The desire and impulse to text him is intense. Overwhelming. My strength is tested constantly. But my friends are right. I will feel even worse after, with the fresh agony of waiting for a response. And there is no response that would be satisfactory. And it would be repeating the same nightmare. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But still, I obsess over it, thinking <em>if I could just craft the perfect message, everything will be okay again<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m an idiot. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There is one distraction. I went to see a new boy tonight. it helped! Plus I actually like him. He&#8217;s curious and strange and interesting and makes me a little crazy because I have no idea how he feels about me. I think he likes me? He&#8217;s asked me to come over Friday. I said yes. He is going to cook me dinner. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I thought the lesson with this whole thing was that I am in fact open to the possibility of a relationship. Something beyond just sex. But that was stupid. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The lesson I <strong>HAVE<\/strong> learned is a good one: being vulnerable and opening yourself up to someone is never worth the risk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1800\" height=\"2400\" src=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-1800x2400.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3338\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-1800x2400.jpg 1800w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-900x1200.jpg 900w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-113x150.jpg 113w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-1152x1536.jpg 1152w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-1536x2048.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/08\/img_6573-scaled.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1800px) 100vw, 1800px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>These legs and my chilled heart will stay closed forever. Leave me alone, world. Let me be. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Normally I would be using the gym as a distraction for how miserable I feel. But I had to go and tear a calf muscle and now I&#8217;m an even&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3339","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3339","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3339"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3339\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3342,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3339\/revisions\/3342"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3339"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3339"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3339"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}