and if you don’t celebrate anything, well happy weekend to you then. Cause everyone celebrates weekends.<\/p>\n
so, to tell the truth, I am not feeling much holiday cheer. I want to be happy and joyful and triumphant and merry and all that, but it just isn’t in me this season. I’ll make the best of it though, it’ll all be fine and in a week or two, everything will be over. And next year will be better, I’m sure of it, even if I have to kill someone to do it.<\/p>\n
I had dreams last night of my Tucson friends, getting a new apartment, and being in some sort of crash with Ry. That last dream was pretty scary. We were on a fancy dream bicycle, going along our merry way. I took a turn too fast, overcorrected, and then we were sailing through brush and bushes and trees. I was panicking in the dream, crazed with worry over the baby, but I don’t know what the outcome was, because I woke up. I felt sick to my stomach and lay in bed wondering if this was some sort of omen.<\/p>\n
It would an unforgivable offense on the part of the universe were something to happen to my boy. You hear me universe? unforgivable.<\/p>\n
the winter solstice has passed and I did a tiny little celebration of my own, honoring the longest night of the year. I wanted to do more but it just didn’t work out that way. It’s nice to know that we’re headed towards spring. I really need 2006 to be a good year, but it looks like maybe it’s going to start out with a bit of a limp. We’ll see how it goes. I gotta keep reminding myself to stay positive.<\/p>\n
I must say, bringing in joy is a real pain in my ass. Being angry, bitter, and pessimistic is so much easier.<\/p>\n
and congrats to jonathan and his lovely new family. yay for babies!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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