{"id":2024,"date":"2020-06-29T02:01:53","date_gmt":"2020-06-29T09:01:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=2024"},"modified":"2020-06-29T02:06:27","modified_gmt":"2020-06-29T09:06:27","slug":"we-found-love-in-a-hopeless-place","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=2024","title":{"rendered":"We found love in a hopeless place"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Well, it\u2019s happened. We knew this day would come. I tried not to think about it. It felt like the magic would last forever. But the end finally came. The end always comes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All four of my birds have left the nest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It happened this morning. I missed the first two, but I was lucky enough to catch the last two leaving.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You know the best part of it all? The best most sweetest thing in the whole universe? All the siblings hung around the area and waited until each one had flown away. The others kept coming back and landing on the balcony, perched on my string lights, checking in, chirping encouragement, until the final bird took flight. Couldn\u2019t you just die. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So it\u2019s over. They all left this morning. no one has been back since. It feels weird. The birds gone. For weeks now I\u2019ve been watching them. Checking on the nest, consistently, all day long. At least once an hour. But today, it\u2019s like I forgot. Out of habit maybe, I kept opening the door to check on them. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-video\"><video controls src=\"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/06\/img_5625.mov\"><\/video><figcaption>But they\u2019re gone.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Now I have nothing. The nest is empty. My heart is empty. My future is empty. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m mostly joking. And yet, I\u2019m also not joking, not joking at all. I can\u2019t explain it. It\u2019s just some birds right. There are tons of them everywhere. Who even cares about dumb birds. But I can\u2019t help it. There is an ache. a sense of loss. I don\u2019t know what is the matter with me. I picture that empty nest, and I think about those birds flying around in the big wide world now, and I think about what I\u2019m supposed to do tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that, with no birds to worry about. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>When will I stop looking out the window. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There\u2019s something wrong with me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Also, there is a lot of poop in that nest. From down here it almost looks pretty. But gross. Just gross. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Well, it\u2019s happened. We knew this day would come. I tried not to think about it. It felt like the magic would last forever. But the end finally came. The&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2024","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-random"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2024","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2024"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2024\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2026,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2024\/revisions\/2026"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2024"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2024"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2024"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}