{"id":1978,"date":"2020-05-29T01:51:34","date_gmt":"2020-05-29T08:51:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=1978"},"modified":"2021-01-19T01:54:12","modified_gmt":"2021-01-19T08:54:12","slug":"i-climb-like-peas-and-beans","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.loafe.com\/?p=1978","title":{"rendered":"I climb like peas and beans"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

A few months ago I purchased these little seed kits. One was lavender and one was… mint? Basil? I can\u2019t remember. I threw away the boxes and I didn\u2019t mark which one was which. Anyway they both started growing and I was excited. Then I dropped one and broke the little eggshell container and the soil went everywhere. I did my best to save it, replanted it in another container.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The one I didn\u2019t break has been doing great. It remained in its little eggshell container and it\u2019s lovely. I was really hoping it was the lavender one, because I like lavender a lot. It\u2019s purple and it smells good. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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But it\u2019s not. It\u2019s the mint\/basil\/other one. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The lavender one is trying though. It\u2019s trying real hard. I don\u2019t know why it\u2019s not doing as well. Maybe I put it in a too-large container after I dropped it? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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But look. It\u2019s not dead. It\u2019s not dead! Not yet anyway. Maybe I should try moving it to a smaller container but I\u2019m afraid I\u2019ll shatter whatever delicate constitution has kept it alive up till now. So I\u2019ll just keep watering it and sunning it and giving it a little plant food now and then. And I guess just be glad the dumb mint\/basil\/whatever one is thriving. Whatever. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have some other news. Hanging on my balcony are two little lanterns, really just for decoration, they serve no useful purpose. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

ONLY NOW THEY DO. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

One of the lanterns has a glass pane missing (cause I broke it, breaking things is what I do) and a little bird found its way inside and built a nest. I am very excited about this. You don\u2019t even know. At first I enjoyed watching her bring all the nest-making bits, leaves and twigs and tufts of stuff. That took maybe a week. And now I enjoy watching her sit in it. She\u2019ll leave for a little while and then come back and then just sit there. It\u2019s really very stupid how much I like this, how interested I am in it. No one is allowed to go out there right now because I don\u2019t want them disturbing or stressing her out. I mean, I can go out there, because I\u2019m like the guardian and the bird knows this of course, she trusts me, I\u2019m sure of it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know there will probably be a lot of bird shit all over the balcony soon enough. But guess what I don\u2019t even care I just love having a nest there, all private and quiet and safe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Can you see her? It is hard to get a picture. But do you see her? Her little tiny bird head. I love her. I love her so much. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So these are the things I\u2019m focusing on right now. My little budding plants and my little tiny bird. It is soothing to me, like a cold wet washcloth on my hot feverish forehead. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It is hard not to be sad right now, crippled by fury and helplessness. But if I can just keep these plants alive… if I can help this bird keep her eggs safe… well then, that\u2019s something. That is something.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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