This is the place to be if you’re looking for random lists of ummm, random stuff. Lists used to be quite a regular feature on loafe, but then it seemed like everyone everywhere had lists, and I had to step away. The time feels right again to return to them. Thanks Tonya, for reminding me that we all love a good list. Or even a not so good list. Just regular old lists of whatever-ness. Because they’re very categorical, super handy, easy to read, and inspirational to all.

In short: come here, find lists. read them or not. I don’t care.

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August 04, 2008

my top five beauty product
-aveda acne relief
-aveda light elements smoothing fluid
-philosophy message in a bottle body cleanser

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October 17, 2007

can you please be my boyfriend?
a few members of the opposite sex who remind me that I have a vagina and hint at the sort of things that it can be used for:
-hugh laurie
-david duchovny
-dennis (from always sunny in philadelphia)
-bret from flight of the conchords
-jacoby ellsbury (red sox player)
-joaquin phoenix

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August 22, 2007

movies on TV
these are a handful of movies that I find myself watching every single time I stumble across them. usually they’re on the channels that show seven hours of cheeseball commericals in between 5-7 mins of movie time, and I’ve seen the movies a billion times each, but I’ll still sit through the torture and watch them. I don’t know if that makes the movie a good one, if I have awful taste, or my life is just a bunch of meaningless happenings. whatever I say.
-the fugitive
-the bourne identity
-big lebowski
-foul play
-what lies beneath

uhh there are more but I can’t remember them. I made the list at work and now I’m at home. once I’ve written something down, I give myself full permission to forget it completely. there’s only so much room. maybe i’ll update this later, tomorrow, next week, who cares.

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April 19, 2007

against the dying of the light
I have to say that this whole virginia tech mess has really got me all funked up, in so many ways. It’s under my skin, on my mind, in my heart. All sorts of conflicting ideas bubbling in me. I don’t know what to do with it, other than write. Here’s my list:

a. The media is full of vultures who will devour anything and everything, twisting and distorting and manipulating without regard. They create evil to give themselves something to do.

b. I don’t understand how someone can shoot a gun off in a dorm, kill people, manage to disappear a few hours, then go back and kill more people in a classrom. How did that happen? Where were the police? Why wasn’t there more reaction to the first shooting? Two hours is a lot of time.

c. It enrages me that this country makes it so easy, that we refuse to enact stricter gun laws, that we’re so sickeningly enraptured with the right to bear arms that we somehow make it okay for this to happen. It doesn’t make sense. It isn’t right that kids can’t even go to school without being murdered. And why? Because it’s in the constitution that we have the right to bear arms? Those people had to die for some asshole’s right to own a bunch of fucking guns? How can you justify that? How can you tell those victims’ families that we’re all very sad for their loss and it’s a tragedy and blah blah blah, but it’s okay in the end, because you deserve the freedom of going home every night and playing with your gun? Maybe to even it out, for every “innocent” killed by a gun, some NRA nut should be, too. Coming home from work the day this happened, I saw a truck with a bumper sticker on it that said “Gun control is hitting your target.” What a motherfucker. Seriously. A lousy motherfucker. It makes me sick. I so badly wanted to ask him how he felt about that sentiment now.

d. I don’t give a rat’s ass what any other nation has to say about the US gun laws. It’s our goddamned country and if we want to let people have guns, and let our citizens and guests be slaughtered with those same guns, then we’ll do it. Don’t fucking lecture us. It’s our constitution. It’s us. It’s what we believe. It’s what we cry, it’s what we eat and drink, it’s what we breathe, it’s what we bleed. What makes us weak also makes us strong. So yay for you and your low-to-none gun homicide statistics. Because the same constitution that lets us bear arms also let’s us speak freely and share information and get rich and live poor and have abortions and wear what we want and worship who we want. It lets us make our own happiness and our own misery. We can do whatever we want, as long as we are willing to live with the consequences. And guess what? Americans are ALWAYS willing to live with the consequences. That’s who we are.

e. Depression and loneliness do not equal a murderer.

f. There is so much irony around us I think that’s why the earth spins on its axis.

g. As we fight for one right, 3 more are slipping from our grasp.

h. That boy, he was what exactly what he was raging against. Did he know this? Did he understand? I don’t think he did. We shouldn’t be giving him his spotlight. He may have earned it, but he doesn’t deserve it.

i. We honor the dead by exploiting them. We exhalt the violence by giving it a voice.

j. Fear will destroy us. If we don’t slow down and take a deep breath, if we keep on this path, we will lose everything we fought so hard to gain.

k. We are lucky. Above all else.

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Ry’s Playlist
These are all songs Ry has shown an interest in (it’s an abbreviated list and doesn’t include kiddie-music and classical, which he’s also quite fond of). Most of his choices I’m cool with; there’s a few beyond my control–he heard them on the radio and will throw a fit if I try to turn them off (tough task: guess which ones they are). What can I say, he’s two. Explaining the finer points of musical appreciation is a bit of a fruitless endeavor.
– Breathe, Anna Nalick
– Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol
– How to Save A Life, The Fray
– Chromakey Dreamcoat, Boards of Canada
– Rebellion, Arcade Fire
– Buddah Bar, Banco de Gaia
– Stars All Seem to Weep, Beth Orton
– Where Do I Begin, Chemical Brothers & Beth Orton
– Last Good Day of the Year, Cousteau
– Sun Comes Up, It’s Tuesday Morning, Cowboy Junkies
– So You’ll Aim Toward the Sky, Grandaddy
– Dynamite Walls, Hayden