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see it when you find out what comets, stars, and moons are all about 12-26-00 ohhhhh, I think I'm sick. ohhhh. I feel sick. i think i'm sick. ugh. why do i keep getting sick? i felt pretty okay this morning and it has gotten steadily worse. so i'm closing my eyes and wishing with all my might to feel better. and that isn't working. so I close my eyes and wish with all my might that someone is right here laying down with me and letting me moan and they are patting my head and stroking my hair and making me laugh and I'm getting mad cause it hurts to laugh and he kisses my nose and we sit there and it's quiet and I wish I could be sick all the time. I feel so incredibly lonely right now and I know I promised not to whine anymore, but that's how I'm feeling. it's because no one knows how to fully appreciate a crazy insane flaky flighty impulsive emotional train wreck (that's me). it's true! sure, you can replace the words "knows how" and "appreciate" with any number of more suitable words so it reads "no one wants to deal with me and my crap" but whatever. you say tomato. i picked up this habit from eddie and I say "jesus" all the time now. you have to hear the tone and inflection though. "jesus, you're sick again?" or something. "jesus I miss you" or "ah jesus you're useless!" it might be an irish thing. i locked myself out of the office today like an idiot. I was the only one in. I forgot to undue the little push button lock thingie so the knob stayed locked, which is okay but I closed the door behind me when I went to the bathroom around 10am and that definitely isn't okay. everything was inside the office, my keys, my bag, my jackets, my gloves, everything. and I didn't have anyone's number either, those were all in the office, too. so i walked around a few minutes and didn't know what to do. then I remembered that mark is listed so I got his number and used the neighbor's phone. no answer. so for two and a half hours I sat around, trying to find someone to let me in when I realized that I could get the cleaning service people from the 3rd floor to let me in, so I did. jesus. my new red wings jersey is hanging on the back of my closet door and I keep looking at it and it makes me very happy. neely rocks. did you ever feel like you're falling towards something that will be impossible to escape? "It's for the touch, for the touch. After all we are only human beings down here and we could do with a lot more praise and comfort than we actually get. Earthling reassurance - it's in permanently short supply, don't you think? Be honest, brother. Lady, now tell the truth. When was the last time a fellow-Earther let you rest your head on their heart, caressed your cheek, and said things designed to make you feel deeply okay? It doesn't happen often enough does it... We'd all like it to happen a lot more often than it does. Can't we do a deal? Oh boy (i bet you're thinking), that head-on-heart stuff, whew, could i use a little of that." that needed repeating, I think. i guess I was in a bit of an eddie mood or something. i need a new best friend. i'm 0 for 3. so i'm creating an all new best friend app and with the help of a smart kid I know, we can find me a new best friend, one who won't keep leaving. also if you were my girl best friend and you sometimes refer to yourself as sheepish and you wrote me a letter but never sent it, I think you should send it but I think you should email me first so I can give you my address. that's what I think. long day tomorrow. send me email, kay?
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