10:10pm

So I saw the movie "High Fidelity" on Sunday afternoon. I loved it, not only because my boyfriend, John Cusack, is the star, but because it was actually good.

Watching it was quite disconcerting (that is the 2nd time I've used that word in the past two days) at times. It's a comedy and it's about love and blah blah, but there were some scenes that just killed me, emotionally speaking, and I actually starting crying. Not big heaving ohmygodthisissosad tears, but these little sad quiet tears. It was weird.

So I've noticed something about myself lately. Whenever I see people kissing, whether on TV or in the movies or real life, I get very uncomfortable, I can't watch. This is particularly odd in movies and on TV, because you are supposed to be watching them. But I see them kissing and I have to turn away. I get this twisty feeling in my stomach and I feel almost embarrassed. Not because I am some kind of prude or something. I think it is because I have been painfully single for way too long. No I shouldn't even say that. Painfully...lonely, I guess.

Yes I'm pathetic. Let's move on.

I've been pissing people off left and right lately.

I've also feel like I'm being stretched a little too thin and people are stressing me out and making me crazy.

And it really pisses me off that I'm not a great fucking writer. god damn it.

I think that it's completely untrue when they say "there are no stupid questions".

Of course there are stupid questions. Stupid people ask stupid questions.
And I don't work at an internet company. not at all. this isn't really related to stupid questions that stupid people ask, but it could be.

Things you will never see on loafe.com:
-imood
-counters
-flash animation
-guestbook
-pink stuff
-teddy bears, roses, or hearts
-webrings
-advertisements (well, not blatantly, but I often like to endorse products I love, such as Starburst Jelly Beans--sex in a sugary bean)
-style sheets (this one is a little shaky, only because I'm not learning them very well but I might use them eventually)
-pictures of my cat (this is a complete lie, but I wish I could promise you that)
-funny, entertaining or useful items (ha ha, see, I'm taking a jab at myself, making fun at my own expense, get it? ha ha)
-lies (but you will see half-truths and complete inventions of situations and people)
-referring to myself in a name that isn't my own
-weird use of text and punctuation to make faces...what do they call them? emoticons or whatever? you know what I'm talking about.
-fancy, pretty, or creative use of design, text, and/or ideas (seriously)

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